What needs to be cleared to receive the blessings meant for you

Nobody tells you this

Jun 06, 2025

I’m sitting here hopped up on coffee, window open, cool alpine air rushing in, sneaking a blog before we go boating this afternoon.

This is the life I always wanted — loving marriage, location-free career, writing and coaching for a living, sharing my ideas, making money.

Why then have I spent so much of this trip crying?

Coeur d’Alene is a stunning north Idaho town built on the shores of its namesake lake. I met my husband nearby at a wedding, when I was journalist at a local paper.

Accepting a promotion here, to a daily newspaper, felt like I’d made it.

At one point, journalism felt like a purpose. It really did.

I remember leaning down, pencil in hand, to ask a young spelling-bee winner, “so how does it feel?” and it honestly felt like the start of my journey to the New York Times.

But things change. People change.

After I got cancer, I decided I wanted to be rich. That’s not what people normally say after they get cancer, but I am not normal. (Much to my mother’s chagrin.)

Sometimes I think everyone around me wishes I was normal.

Sometimes I wish I was normal.

How much easier would it be to want simple things, to be content working a normal job, happy in whatever town I ended up, and not have this constant longing to push myself emotionally, mentally, spiritually, creatively to see what’s possible.

That push used to be driven by a deep feeling of unworthiness, and that’s partly why I burned out.

But I’m not normal, and over the years, I’ve learned that’s a good thing.

God made women like us for a higher purpose.

Discovering that purpose requires loving and accepting ourselves, and our desires, and realizing that just because those around us don’t necessarily understand, we understand ourselves.

Along the way, you’ll encounter people — mentors, peers, random Internet figures — who will inspire, support, motivate and guide you. I hope I’m one of those people for you.

The thing nobody tells you is that over the course of your career, especially if you’re living your purpose, you’ll evolve.

The things you used to write about or teach on will no longer inspire you. You’ll feel called to speak about different things in different ways, and because of that, some people you really loved connecting with will leave.

Beyond career, you’ll experience life situations that change you. Health challenges, the loss or gain of loved ones, relationship ups and downs, moves, celebrations and struggles.

When your career is your authentic self-expression, that changes how you show up, too.

We can spend time trying to fit ourselves into old forms that no longer fit, but eventually you realize you have to evolve.

Through that evolution, you’ll sometimes be in a void where the new hasn’t fully taken shape, but the old no longer fits.

That’s the place I’m in right now.

A place where my heart often hurts.

A place where I’m grieving the long pause of burnout.

Grieving the version of me who built the platform to which I owe my success.

She’s not someone I can return to. I need to love and respect the woman I’ve become, even if the circumstances that forged her weren’t ones I wanted.

I’m in my 40s now, and even though my life is amazing in so many ways, I’m too hard on myself for certain situations. I’m still working on my health, still living someplace I don’t want to be, still trying to define this next chapter of my life.

I really wish I could be fake. Life would be so much easier if I was.

It’s like that time in college during a criminal justice class, we were supposed to attend court and do a little write-up.

Instead, that weekend, we got pulled over with weed, mushrooms and open containers in the car (I did not have an open container, and the driver was sober). The cops thankfully let us go after smashing everything into the dirt.

I ended up writing about THAT. My professor gave me an A and wrote “candid!”

If anything, that’s the common thread of my life. Too honest. Too emotional. Too blunt. Too wild.

But if there’s anything I’ve learned over the course of my life, the more unapologetically ME I am, the more everything works.

So I’m glad I’m crying. Releasing. Returning. Accepting and creating space.

Because I’m NEW. I’m DIFFERENT.

And that’s a good thing.

Here’s what I want you to know today —

You need to release the pain of past disappointments to receive the blessings meant for you.

The thing about finding your purpose (the work you’re meant to do) whether that’s discovering it in the first place, finding it again after life has been life-ing, or gaining clarity on your vision…

Is that you need to release the pain of the past before receiving guidance forward.

Your vision, mission, purpose and destiny is something you receive from beyond you.

It’s not something you figure out. It’s something you create space for, and then feel into, step by step.

When I work with clients, our first session is usually spent sorting through their inner world to release the emotional heaviness blocking them from receiving their vision.

Because the emotional residue of past disappointments, choices gone wrong, painful experiences and unmet expectations pile up, and you need to clear that energy to create your soul-aligned business.

The absolute 1,000%, non-negotiable truth is you need to fully accept, love and value yourself for your purpose to become apparent.

Most people judge themselves and their desires or hide who they are in some way to receive external love and approval, to fit in, or because they’re afraid of rocking the boat in their relationships.

For example, MY GOD I WISH I COULD WRITE ABOUT HOW TO MAKE A MILLION DOLLARS ONLINE OR HOW TO MANIFEST A HUGE YACHT FOR BOAT PARTIES OFF THE COAST OF MIAMI.

But alas — I was born to help people sift through their emotions, to help them release things they don’t want to feel.

And I get to love that about myself. I get to be the embodiment of the freedom and abundance and joy that gives you, if you embrace the pain long enough to get to the other side.

What you really need to know is that if you avoid this work, you won’t find your purpose, and you won’t build the soul-aligned business you’re meant for.

Flat out. I don’t really speak in absolutes, but this is the absolute truth.

Because again — if you don’t fully love and accept yourself, and clear the space to receive your vision and the guidance to create it, there’s no way in hell you’re going to receive the blessings earmarked for you.

You need to live in full alignment with your authentic self to bring the vision in your heart to life.

I talk more about what that means exactly in Bloom every single week — and if you haven’t joined yet, why not???

This is the space I created for us. For women like us, who feel too much and dream so big, and who’s sensitivity can be an asset, but can also hold us back from creating the life we want because we also THINK way too much.

I’m an inner work expert, and whether you’re new to this work or have been on the journey for years, I can take you deeper.

Deeper into your inner guidance, deeper into your vision, further and faster along the path to make money with your soul’s work.

This is my life’s work — to help people understand themselves and live their purpose, by which I mean make money in the way they’re meant to, while creating the life their soul longs to live.

(In case you haven’t noticed, I don’t market like a normal person, either. Your marketing MUST align with your soul!)

Inner work isn’t the easiest sell. A lot of people will spend years or their entire lives chasing strategy after strategy, forcing positive thoughts, manifestation hacks, buying new planners or trainings from random FB ads promising guaranteed success —

but let me tell you — even if you manage to create success that way, it won’t feel good, and you’ll keep searching.

Because what you’re really searching for is God.

You’re searching for a feeling of wholeness within, the ability to create from that sense of wholeness, and to discover how to monetize that wholeness without sacrificing it to the rules of ‘what works online.’

There is SO MUCH CRAP online, so many dumb rules, and I am so grateful I became successful in the earlier days because if I didn’t already have proof that following my soul worked, I would’ve gotten so lost.

So stop chasing shiny objects and start going within.

Start with this Bloom training on releasing the past to receive your next-chapter vision, then share your realizations with me (and other members) in the chat or comments.

If you’re ready to release what’s holding you back and finally receive your next-chapter vision, Bloom with us. We’re not normal here — and that’s exactly the point.

Let this be the start of everything new.

All the love,

Suzanne